annoyance
one thing that truly drives me crazy is when people look at someone with bipolar disorder as if he or she is a psychopath.
I am not psychotic. I don’t choose to be like this. nobody with a mood disorder just decides to feel how they do. MOOD. not choice.
I realize there are some severe cases that involve manic episodes. that’s more rare than the usual mood swings that a bipolar person has. I don’t act upon my moods, I try to hide it. if I need to cry, I excuse myself to the restroom, or do so alone in my room. we have our shit together, and we know and expect these low moments, as well as the highs too.
medication helps sometimes. my medication reduces the frequency of my “sad” episodes, and lessens the severity of them too. without it, I sometimes just feel the urge to cry, as if there is a lump in my throat.
being bipolar does not make me a bad person. I have good intentions and want to help people. I’m not selfish. I love the people in my life and treat them with respect. my mood does not trap me in a bubble of selfishness and self absorbance.
before you judge someone based on the presence of a mental or mood disorder, please just keep in mind that we do not choose to face these battles, and we do not ever want to feel this way.
it’s something that just happens.
